My future is screwed up.

I should have applied to more colleges for transfer, because one has wait-listed me, one has rejected me, and I'm sure the last one is going to reject me as well. There are a whole list of reasons as to why I can't stay at my school, but I won't bore y'all with the details. I'm so scared of being stuck in this state like everyone else I know, and that's exactly where I'm headed. I feel like I'm being pushed into going to a university here, and I know that if I do, I won't leave Michigan. And I'm trying my hardest to get the hell out of here, but I don't know what else to do.

*sigh* Just ranting.

Just got off the vampire cycle last night. Ugh... I feel horrible today. Does this ever happen to anyone else (Having an awkward and fluctuating sleeping cycle that alters between somewhat normal and completely reversed every few weeks or so) ? Just a thought...

Alice in Zombieland: I know exactly how you feel. That basically describes my life. I feel like that very often, unfortunately. I know your pain all too well. It gives me a constant lack of motivation, preventing me from achieving my goals.

Necromantic_Lovely: Hahaha! Zombie apocalypse, huh? Well... I've fought many zombies in Dracula's Castle back in 1797. I must do whatever it takes to help ease the burden on mankind, as my mother would have wanted it...Don't worry. You can rely on me to help. I would say that I'm pretty decent with a sword!

CallaWolf: I know how you feel man. I'm very much the loner/isolated type so I know what it is like to never have "interaction". I'm sorry to hear of your troubles and I honestly hope things get better for you. But quite frankly, I feel quite like you a lot of times: I just want the world to end. My cursed life has taken it's toll on me to the extreme. Anyway... If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'll gladly converse with you!

FairyInBoots: You make a pretty good point. But do remember that there is a difference between being nostalgic and living in the past. One can appreciate old times without clinging to them as one can only live in the past and accept nothing of "now", constantly comparing it to the past. As for me, I like to reflect on past experiences but only to say: "Ah, yes! I remember that..." But I very well know that clinging to the past is a horrible thing. I live for myself, for tomorrow. I don't care about fickle things such as mainstream stuff or politics. They are just a HUGE waste of my time...and they always will be.

CallaWolf: I know how you feel man. I'm very much the loner/isolated type so I know what it is like to never have "interaction". I'm sorry to hear of your troubles and I honestly hope things get better for you. But quite frankly, I feel quite like you a lot of times: I just want the world to end. My cursed life has taken it's toll on me to the extreme. Anyway... If you ever need anyone to talk to, I'll gladly converse with you!

It's not that I really want the world to end, it's just that it's weird that the last two weeks things have happened that were out of the ordinary, and a good 70% of it happening withing a 24 hour period.


It's just weird seeing people I somewhat know actually wanting to talk to me instead of shrugging me off like I was just 'that one guy I walk past every so often.' I'm kinda thrown off by it and it makes me confused.


Maybe it's just the fact that I've been giving off a more positive aura lately or something.

So my computer crashed again, and now I'm on the desktop. The good news is that I ordered a new laptop, but it won't arrive for a few weeks. It's really neat. It's black and red (wit a red light up keyboard). It's a Dell Alienware, and because I got to customize it, it looks GAF. I am happy. Sadly, I may not be on goth.net much until it gets here, because this desktop is ancient and it simply annoys me.

We'll probably be here when you can get back online, Midi. No worries here.

*whew*

I'll try to come by, I just hate this computer. I love gnet, though, so know that none of you are forgotten!

We'll probably be here when you can get back online, Midi.