Because you liked the way they smelled/looked...? Just guessing.

Necrolord: No, that's a good suggestion.

That#s not calling out, that's passive aggression.

Think western movies. Calling out is standing in the middle of the road after firing a shot in the air and then saying mean things about his mother.

batty, definitely tell him the truth.

I've got to work more on my outline. Need to get it done today and then I can work more on writing the actual story.

I guess so xD I need to by new ones

I had a revelation today that I'm not sure what to do with myself when I'm bored.

World of Warcraft's servers are down, eliminating my primary means of entertainment. After four exams and two quizzes last week, none of my classes have given homework. So much for that stereotype of college students being busy-bees and always overwhelmed with work...

I've learned something today

Now I'm single, men won't leave me alone. I'm not interested, I've just come out of a serious long term relationship, that I am by no means anywhere near getting over, and I wish to be left alone until I've sorted my head out, savvy? But no, I'm fair game it seems. It's hard to stay polite and not lose my temper.

In other news, I've discovered mushroom brown nail polish looks wonderful with black velvet. It was in set I got at Christmas, not my favourite colour in said set, but it's grown on me since I painted my nails this morning. (It works out at £2 a bottle as the set was £12 for six, and it's lasted better than some others more expensive brands, I had a bath and washed my hair less than half an hour after I finished painting my nails, and no chipping! Wonderful.)

Take up a new hobby. Play a different game.

RIP Davy Jones of The Monkeys.
I can't say I was much of a fan of the band, but my brothers and I all grew up watching re-runs of their TV show, and we re-enacted that walk they do more times than I care to remember
Davy Jones is also the celebrity I've been told I look like more than any other, so RIP "brother from another mother"

I just heard about that Milk. I'm really sad about it too. I watched the tv show (reruns of course) and listened to their music when I was younger. Poor guy and his family too.

My mom is a compulsive hoarder.


It started when I was 13 years old. My dad was sent to jail, so we lived alone together. When I was 14 her back began to hurt, but she kept working to support us both. Then it all crashed down when in 2007 when she was hospitalised for three months straight because of a bloodclot in the heart.
It was already pretty bad at this point - see, my mom hoards animals and stuff such as clothes and old magazines. She had 21 cats at this point and only one litterbox. There was cat poop all over the place. You couldn't walk around the house without shoes on. It was so disgusting. I hated to tell people that they couldn't visit me because the house was so cluttered and dirty.

I visited her last month. I moved out when I was 18, and I'd almost forgotten how bad cat piss smells when you don't clean it up. The smell of piss and poop almost knocked me over when I went into her house. I won't lie, I almost broke down right there. There was nowhere for me to sleep, because I wasn't going to sleep in a bed that's soaked with piss and is covered with fur and mold. There was moldy poop on the floor, and cardboard boxes all over the place, even on the bed.
I also discovered that the bathroom is no longer accesible. The mold was taking over when I lived there, but now it has destroyed it. She told me that the ceiling has collapsed and that she's taking sponge baths in the kitchen once a week now. The linoleum floor is destroyed from the ammonia in the puddles the cats leaves all over the place. I'm pretty sure they all have infections.

I've tried calling the local authorities regarding the cats (she only feeds the cats bread, there is never fresh water for them, the litterbox is never cleaned, and they never get help when they are sick. So far 7 has died because of massive worm infections, they all have some sort of neurological problems because of inbreeding, and they are all malnourished. She doesn't want to go the vet to get any of the cats fixed either, so they keep getting kittens), but they haven't answered my emails, and they never call me back. I don't know what to do anymore.
I love my mom, but I think I have to give up now. The last time someone tried to help her by throwing away all the trash, she was in hysterics. She refuses to move to another house, even though she won't have do pay a dime. She will not move, even though the house is in ruins and there is mold everywhere. She also refuses to get any help re: her mental illness. On top of that, she can't afford the house. She owes a huge amount of money to the bank.




So, yeah. Just felt like getting that down on text. If anyone has any ideas, feel free to tell me.

Alice, sorry to hear.

As for me, I completed my third consecutive day of retail training and will receive my certificate in two weeks!

Next week, I meet with my job coach again to review the bartending course their organization offers. I've wanted to try my hand at bartending off and on for a few years now. I just hope I can keep up with the pace. For once, I'm not actually concerned with the social aspect - rather how quick bartenders (and barbacks) have to be to match customer demand.

I think I'm falling into the service/retail industry. I never thought that I'd be doing so, but at least this gets me a chance to work on my people skills.

Alice: I'm sorry. Not sure what to tell ya.




Tonight, I officially deleted the blog I've been writing due to lack of any quality material being written and a lack of readership.

Ok, I can see some things might help. She may be suffering from anosognosia wherein due to what I think is a defect in the frontal lobe she is truly unaware that she is Ill. If this complication is present then a good place to start is with Xavier amador's works on the subject. One I hear referred to often is "I am not sick I don't need help". Additionally there are possibilities in Psychotherapeutic strategies like "stages of change" or "motivational interviewing". These were originally developed for cases of substance abuse but could easily be adapted to this particular case which unfortunately I have to make assumptions about. The general idea in these two methods, formally deemed transtheoretical models I believe, is to recognize the persons willingness to change and tailor strategies to that degree of willingness.

I'm really not sure about your particular challenges with your mom but in my experience, and from what I interpreted from what you said, getting her into help and getting her to stick with it seem to be the biggest challenge forgive me if I am misreading the situation.

The Cure have just been confirmed for a festival here
Not only that, but one of my brothers bands have been confirmed too, so he may be able to sneak me backstage